So I do not have much to report here only to state that life without my Pa sucks and I am going through a period of my Abba not speaking to me. Which to say the very least is discouraging and depressing. I am attempting not to revert to my old habits and am failing miserable. I just need someone to listen, to care to have 'fun' with me. I have way too much work to do and I never have enough time for fun( reading..) Basically I just needed to write here to here someone to listen to me. Sad right that I am writing to a computer to have 'someone' to listen. Lucky you people who read this post. All this to say I am just having a difficult life right now. Too many stresses and not enough time to meditate and relax. I need Abba alone time, me time.

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