Parting is such sorrow

So today four years ago my Grandfather, Pa passed away suddenly. I never got to say goodbye. His loss is that much more raw because in a week I am getting married and he will not be there. I miss him so much my heart aches to think about him. I am so afraid of forgetting him yet, it hurts so much to remember him. I close my eyes some times just to make sure I can remember him without having to look at a picture to remember what he looked and sounded like. I miss everything about him, but what I miss the most is his laugh, his smile, and his sense of humor. He could always make me laugh. Today I remember you as you were when you were still with me.
RIP Pa